2017, the year that can f**k right off…

There’s no way reason to sugar coat this, but 2017 can fuck right off… I think it’s safe to say that this year has been one of the toughest years I’ve ever had. Whilst there have been moments of good, the rest of the year has just been a mess of emotion, anxiety and depression. I know there’s a whole bunch of haters to the “New Year, new me” movement, but I’m kicking off 2018 in New York so… bring on the New Year!

Seeing as writing is a little cathartic, here’s the good, the bad and the somewhere-in-the-middle of 2017!

The Good

  • Completed two more semesters of my degree (5 A’s and 3 B’s total)
  • Nominated for in2science mentor dedication award
  • Awarded Customer Service Champion award at La Trobe University
  • Started a new job with Second Chance Animal Rescue and rehired for La Trobe’s orientation connect program
  • Accepted into the Biodiversity in Peru overseas short program for January
  • Saw SIA, Charlie XCX, Katya, Alaska, Peppermint, Sasha Velour & others live
  • Spent a week with family up in the Northern Territory
  • Marriage Equality became law in Australia
  • Nintendo Switch came out (and breath of the wild)
  • Got to see Zelda: Symphony of the Goddesses
  • Richmond Tigers won the 2017 AFL Grand Final! (Had never happened in my lifetime)
  • JB continued to be my biggest support and best friend

The Bad

  • Losing Bonnie, our little puppy forever, after she developed a serious infection after a bite
  • Cracking my rib (therefore breaking my first bone)
  • My relationship of close to 4 years ending
  • Moving house, twice, and not having somewhere to come home to after my travel
  • Spent way too much money on dental work  (I have a bad dentist anxiety, hence why this is bad)
  • Tried dating again and that ended after 3 months (the connection I made with this was great, it ending wasn’t, but in the end I’ve made an awesome friend.)

The Somewhere-in-the-Middle

  • Being diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. This was a scary diagnosis but at the same time it’s allowing me to move forward with my life and understanding a bit more.
  • Losing really close friends who are shutting me out of their lives, and gaining new ones.
  • Leaving my job at The Lost Dogs’ Home after 6 years (with minimal fuss)
  • Turned 30
  • Financial position was up and down, still in debt
  • Joined a gym and tried to eat healthier (which didn’t really end up happening properly just yet)

The most important thing here is that despite all this and in the words of SIA, I’m still breathing. Life is always going to throw challenges my way, but it’s up to me to determine how I’m going to face them and move forward in the best way. I have a small but important support network who are my closest confidants, I have a great psychologist and a GP who listens. I’m thankful for the support I have and I’m facing 2018 head on!

About Kevin

Kevin is 30 and lives in Melbourne, Australia with his Border Collie Cynder and his Borderline Personality Disorder.

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